Courtesy

When someone makes possible plans with you isn't it common courtesy to make a call and cancel them or to postpone them?

I think yes and today I was mildly blown off. It feels kinda shitty.

I keep on telling myself it's not that big of a deal. But I am obviously bothered by it or I wouldnt think about it. So here I am now blogging about it. I am not devastated.

Perhaps I am looking for a reason to be upset or to throw a fit. I dont know. I was looking forward to it. So it's a disapointment. I heard the 'maybe' when the conversation was taking place and so why not let me know that it's 'maybe not going to happen today'?

Which 'maybe' anything I usually deem as BS in the first place...

In most ways I think I am a respectful person. So I have this expectation for other people. When someone calls and I dont answer - I call them back. If possible plans are made, I make a point to cancel them in a respectful fashion if something happened and I can not keep my word. If I have something unpleasant to say I try to be nice about it. Now, that last part may not always happen, but at least I can say I try.

In the end I think that people that don't reach out and do this are kinda rude. I think it careless & disrespectful of them. It's a simple phone call. It's not hard. So just fucking do it.

But yes, I was blown off, sort of.

And how does one go about pointing this out? Do I not go out with them next time an offer is extended? Do I just point blank say that I didnt like that? Do I go as far to tell them that since I am not important that the feeling is now mutual? I dont know. I am confusd. I start to think that if they have no care for me and my time then they are not worth spending time with anyways.

So there it is bitch # 789,253

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On a brighter note (he he) I was at the college today and was waiting to talk to a counseler. Well I overheard this guy talking about a class I had enrolled in. Well Mr. Guy rolls over to the table I am waiting at and takes a seat. As he was walking over I noticed he was hot and then that I knew him from middle school... I had a crush on him :D

Well he immediatly starts to fill out some school form and I ask him if he went to such and such school. He says yes. And then he stares all hard at me as to figure out if he knew me. I told him the story, we talked about the teacher and then I asked him what classes he's taking. He names the class I am in. We compare time and section #'s are low and behold we are in the same CIS class. YAY! Hot boy is in MY class. We talk and then he's going to another school dept to finish enrollment.

Maybe me and hot buy will sit together! And flirt and show each other our notes*.

Wishful thinking.

oh well. it helps.

Also I would like to say that I love my Mom and that although she has been able to fork out the cash for everything my little heart desires she did tried & did a fine job doing what she could. I love her very much. I have no idea where I would be if it were not for her. Sometime she can overly frustrate me and I dont like that when i have so much going on.

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I have not given a B report bc I have none. He's probably an ass. But at least I know he's been busy doing projects around his house that he 'wants to finish before I come over & says I'll be amazed'. Who knows what that is...

The good news is that I am moving on in my own way. Whatever way it goes is OK. I really have no desire to see him if it really is a done deal. Dont need to confuse myself. We are suppose to get together soon but who knows? I sure dont.

Since we are techinically not together at this point I am not living as if we are together. I havent really given out my number in the 'like ~ like you' sort of way. Don't think that is possible as of yet being that I was with him for 15mos. But I did give my number to an old friend that I used to work with that found me on the net. I always thought he was cute but never really did anything with it. I would like to just go out and have a good time. Maybe flirt and get to know what that feels like again. Is that bad? I dont think so. I havent flirted in soo long. I think it would be fun and feel good.

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Another random:

Yesterday I was at the grocery store helping my Sister jump her car. She was all upset bc she thought at the time it was her alternater that went out and how expensive it would be and blah blah she was visably upset.

Well up walks up two girls. They have a name tag on from church. At first I think they are LDS or morman.

They ask if we need help and we say 'no thx' nicel and they sit there and stare. She starts to ask me if I have a relationship with Jesus Christ. Well instead of being rude & telling them I am not interested in thier version of God or Jesus Christ I think that if I tell them I am active in my own faith that they wont bother me about theirs. Well they tell me about where thier church is and yada yada. I tell them I was raised Catholic & out of curiousity ask what religion they are. They tell me Christian.

I think Oh ok.

And then she continues to ask if she can come back to my house to talk about Jesus & Christianity.

I know my scrunched up my nose and then said "you want to come to my house?"

She looks all nervous and says 'yes'.

I am thinking that I have never heard of other Christians being so out right about these sort of things especially after claiming my own 'faith'. They want to come over? Are they serious? They must be weirdos.

So I tell them that wouldnt work but to give me a card and maybe I'll visit the church, . They give me a card and list their #'s. Other words were exchanged and then they walked off.

I am sitting there like 'what the hell?' Christians dont do that! Not here anyways!

Well Sis and I leave and go home. We are later telling my Mom the story & Sis calls them Mormans. I corrected her saying "NO NO they were Christians".

She says "really?" all curious like...

I was all "yeah they were from 'The Church Of latter Day Saints. They were Christians."

Sweeten looks at me, laughs and says "Thats LDS Rachael. They were Morman, but the correct term is LDS ie Latter Day Saints."

I say "oh......(long pause) why didnt they just say that? They called themselves Christians?!"

Everyone laughs but me.

And that's how the LDS fooled me, and how I made myself seem very ignorant.

But i thought it was funny.

OK Ta ta.